I’d send this as a text but it’s a bit on the long side so I’m posting it here. Anywho, I had an idea of something we could do together and bond over and stuffs. The gist of it is that we’d make two shared blogs. They could be private or not, doesn’t matter none to me.
They’d both work the same way. We’d use them to reblog things that remind us of each other and write notes and commentaries and stuff. We could send each other pictures and stuff like that.
Each one would have a theme. One would be a romance blog, one would be a sex blog.
That’s all the thinking I got right now on it. What do you think?
I feel like being sappy and poetic so here’s a little….whatever you wanna call it. Enjoy.~
roaringthoughtstremblingvoice asked: You two. You're simply adorable. You remind me of myself and my boyfriend, as we are quite similar to you both personality wise, and circumstantially. I wish you the best of luck, friends. please always remember what your other half is truly worth.
Thanks so much! <3
It’s OK. I realize why you did it and I don’t believe you meant to do it on purpose. You wanted to be closer to me and unfortunately someone else got hurt, but honestly he should have been able to take a hint. I know Aspergers fucks with your ability to empathize and read other people, but it was very obvious.
I don’t blame you at all, not even in the slightest, for not telling him sooner. I would not have cared even if you never did tell him. I still have close friends who don’t know about you. It’s just a matter of comfort levels and how different people react to different things.
There’s nothing I blame you for. Trust me.
There are some things I realized tonight. And these reasons caused me to remember two things:
- How lucky I am to be loved by someone so magnificent
- Why me? I don’t deserve someone so great as yourself.
First and foremost, you undoubtedly have my heart, as I have mentioned to you before. You have my heart, my body, and my soul. And I will not ask for them back. Ever.
God, I just fucking love you. It’s ridiculous.
Thank you for being you.
My dearest Conan,
I know I’ve said this many times before, but the closer we get to March, the faster my heart beats. A friend reminded me today that we only have five weeks left. Five weeks. I don’t even know how much time we’ll have together, but I need you now more than ever, as you might know. And for this, I might not forgive myself for feeling dependent or putting myself in harm’s way, but I’m eternally grateful that you forgive me.
God, I just love you so much. You do mean everything to me and more. I just can’t wait until I can break free of this cage I’m trapped in and I have the freedom to go anywhere I please. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with you. I’m not even sure if I’m old enough to make that decision, but I can feel it somewhere inside me.
PS- I know it’s Valentines day, but that’s not the reason I’m posting this. Honestly. This holiday sucks hippopotamus ass.
My dearest Conan,
In one month and eleven days, on the Seventeenth of March to the Twenty-Fourth, I will venture westward, possibly first stopping in either Denver or Dallas, and then I will make my way to Ontario Airport, where I will stay in Riverside. Although I may be kept busy for some time, I will do whatever it takes to finally be in your arms.
For months on end I would lie awake at night in an empty bed wishing someone could be beside me to warm my cold body. Even though I might not even get a chance to lie down with you, I know that I will finally be able to kiss those sweet lips I’ve always dreamed of. I will finally get to run my fingers through your soft hair. My heart might pound wildly and I might start to tremble, but as long as you’re there, everything will be alright.
I do hope this day arrives quickly. I would wait for you forever if I had to.
I didn’t believe in perfection until I met you.
Now that I have the date set, looks like my flight’s a lot cheaper.
I have enough money.~